so i just uploaded like three freaking million stupid writing things...
lol
i havent been on for a while.
Merry Christmas Eve Eve you guys!!

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dont you just hate it when nothing goes according to plan?
when everything around you is just falling apart?

when your family is going crazy,
friends cease contact,
and when you finally take a step back and look
at your "relationship" its just a disappointment?
when everything you had been hoping for just sort of came back to haunt you
and now you dont have anything left, not even what you need?

sadly, i still dont regret anything ive done or said this summer.
its all been for the better.
ive changed a few lives and mine has surely been changed.
lets just hope times like these dont last too long.
with the way Mike's acting,
im not sure if he hasnt driven himself crazy.

it needs to rain.
i need to run.
i need really good music.
i need to love and be loved.

is that too much to ask?

well thats kinda sad in a strange way.
born a little black boy, died an old white woman.

sorry, that was bad.

anyway i cant find the stuff ive been writing this week so ill
put it up next time i get online.
haha.
i seriously cant find it...

i swear my mother wants
to do him worse than i do.

sad, really.

if you know what im talking about
you soo have to comment me.

if youre my best friend
who hasnt talked to me since you gotts a boyfriend,
you should comment me anyway
so we can both figure out what the hell
is going on in each other's lives.

thats how a friendship works.

people are crazy.
im officially a true person.

last night i stayed up until nearly four in the morning arguing and kinda fighting with Amber Smith over Mike.
she knows how bad of an influence he can be.
hes dated him.
i know.
i spend a lot of time around him.

but hes not a terrible person at all.
he tries so hard to make everyone happy.
sure, hes really stubborn and hes going to be himself,
but Amber is the same way.
so am i.

im still pissed.

i had to wake up at five-thirty.

still going.